I was just sitting here with my roommate when I looked at him and said "do you ever feel like at any moment a monster will come down and bite your head off?" I just don't understand the look he gave me. Like I am some nut or such. Thankfully he let me eloborate. What I mean is that sometimes I feel like I am hanging around waiting for the next shoe to drop.
My sister and mother died several years ago and ever since then I sit waiting for the next big monster to come out of nowhere and ruin my world. I am here to tell you that having a monster bite your head off does not necessarily kill you. It just leaves you in pain for a very long time.
Since they have been gone the beauty of the quiet morning can be ruined by my own guilt. They died and my brother said "I just thank god it was not me" (this from a Buddhist). And I asked "why wasn't it me?" (this from a non-catholic).
To quote Lloyd Dobler "I don't want to sell anything, buy anything, or process anything as a career. I don't want to sell anything bought or processed, or buy anything sold or processed, or process anything sold, bought, or processed, or repair anything sold, bought, or processed. You know, as a career, I don't want to do that."
Tuesday, August 23, 2005
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